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teen love

They met during social interaction in Algebra class.
She was expressionless at first, but then “smiled” to indicate submission.
He rearranged his facial features to appear “friendly.”
After determining that their popularity status was comparable,
they decided that a “relationship” would be mutually beneficial.
They were careful to be seen together
at the local fast-food franchises.
He had a stylized speech pattern.
She used all the newest slang.
When they talked on the telephone,
they had troubled generating conversation stimulus.
They programmed “arguments” into their “relationship”
to make their lives seem “meaningful.”
They could act “really mad” or “happy” or even “sad”
according to the current pre-fabricated social circumstances.
He had programmed his “personality”
to conform to adolescent trends.
She had synthesized her “emotions”
based on accepted teen sex-role characteristics.
They had copied all aspects of their behavior
from what they had observed in society.
Ego complex, insecurity syndrome
Oo yeah, they were really “goin’ gud.”
They were killed in an auto wreck as they were driving to and fro.
After drinking two beers, he was pretending to be “drunk.”
While the local popular radio station
played the newest pre-designated, youth-oriented “top-forty hit,”
he was decapitated in an explosion of flames and glass fragments.
Her body was found crushed into the dashboard.
A mini-cam report described them as “fine youngsters.”
They never got a chance to fulfill their “career dreams.”

6

Today I started taking antidepressants.  Rightfully so, I skipped my weekly psychologists appointment.

Dr. Kibler’s secretary called my cell phone and i lied and said i wasn’t Kevin and that he wasn’t feeling well and slept in.

5

File-sharing has been on my mind.  I’m only 18 but if i want to exist in the productive end of some punk rock or indie music community i have to get my morals in check.  Personally, I have no problem with people sharing my music around.  I’m flattered by the idea.  I also don’t need to support myself on it.  But I never want to.  So does that make me believe file-sharing is ok?

I need to take into consideration other people in the world besides myself.  Two personal heroes of mine, Mark McCoy and Justin Pearson, own their own labels and put out music by bands I really enjoy.  But it seems I believe that everyone should be like me and be open with sharing their music.  Unfortunately the amount of money I need to put out records and tapes and cd-rs with my friends is only a fraction of the cost of the new Geronimo or Cult Ritual albums.  Even on that DIY level, everything is expensive.

Another person I admire, Eric Paul, just started his own label, Anchor Brain, that I am very excited about.  His first release is the third LP by his band The Chinese Stars.  I’ve heard it and it’s great.  But what if I just feel like not spending a few bucks on shipping or the extra $2 it might cost his label to to put out an album because he cant by in bulk because he cant sell that many records?  On a small scale, I am costing him and whoever else he may run the label with about $13 they deserve.  But of course I’m not the only person who might do the same as him.  So on a big scale he is fucked, and Pearson is fucked, and McCoy is fucked.  And I save $50 on a couple mp3s.

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3

This hasn’t been used in over a year.  I was Googling “Radically Fucked” to see if anyone else uses it and completely forgot I made this.  I think I’ll start using it a lot more now though.  I like the idea of just writing down/typing up what is on my mind even if no one reads it.  It just feels really good.  And short sentences of wit posted on Facebook don’t get my whole point across.

Also, I really hope writing/typing more will help me with my grammar and spelling that have really been going downhill lately.

2

I guess I have been wasting the little space I got here so I might as well use it!

Tonight, or last night i suppose i played at a local diy punk venue (whose name is not to be uttered because the operators have gone totally paranoid since they were voted best venue in a local paper and the other local punk venue got shut down) with three bands from Chicago, Weekend Nachos, Intifada, and Abrade.

We played first and fucking sucked.  I yelled at my drummer a few times cause he was messing up and kept mixing up songs and had been pissing me off lately so a lot of tention got out.  People said we played good and pissed me off more cause i knew they thought they were beeing nice cause i was bummed out, but luckily my friend Dane said it was the worst show we’ve ever played and just wasnt good and it made me happy that i had such a good honest friend.

the rest of the night was ok, all the other bands were good and that put me in a good mood, but my drummer once again found a way to really piss me off.  he was supposed to stay at my house and he has this stupid habit of getting drunk after we play, so he was talking to my singer next to me about how he is gonna get drunk tongiht and i told him”if you drink you cant stay over”.  He just looks at me as if i had stabbed him in the back with this death stare and just walks away and i look over and he opens a beer.  unfortunately by the end of the night he was too bummed out with his own stupid problems (and believe me they are stupid) i didnt have the heart to make him go home.

anyway, its late/early and i think this rant is down

First Post

Not really sure what to do with this bad johnson.

Maybe hundreds of years from now scientists will discover it and use it as a Rosetta Stone for the new language they use (which will obviously based of the totally ridiculous slang we use now) and the language of the past.

Or I’ll just delete this.

Gag me with a spoon.