Monthly Archives: October 2009

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teen love

They met during social interaction in Algebra class.
She was expressionless at first, but then “smiled” to indicate submission.
He rearranged his facial features to appear “friendly.”
After determining that their popularity status was comparable,
they decided that a “relationship” would be mutually beneficial.
They were careful to be seen together
at the local fast-food franchises.
He had a stylized speech pattern.
She used all the newest slang.
When they talked on the telephone,
they had troubled generating conversation stimulus.
They programmed “arguments” into their “relationship”
to make their lives seem “meaningful.”
They could act “really mad” or “happy” or even “sad”
according to the current pre-fabricated social circumstances.
He had programmed his “personality”
to conform to adolescent trends.
She had synthesized her “emotions”
based on accepted teen sex-role characteristics.
They had copied all aspects of their behavior
from what they had observed in society.
Ego complex, insecurity syndrome
Oo yeah, they were really “goin’ gud.”
They were killed in an auto wreck as they were driving to and fro.
After drinking two beers, he was pretending to be “drunk.”
While the local popular radio station
played the newest pre-designated, youth-oriented “top-forty hit,”
he was decapitated in an explosion of flames and glass fragments.
Her body was found crushed into the dashboard.
A mini-cam report described them as “fine youngsters.”
They never got a chance to fulfill their “career dreams.”

6

Today I started taking antidepressants.  Rightfully so, I skipped my weekly psychologists appointment.

Dr. Kibler’s secretary called my cell phone and i lied and said i wasn’t Kevin and that he wasn’t feeling well and slept in.

5

File-sharing has been on my mind.  I’m only 18 but if i want to exist in the productive end of some punk rock or indie music community i have to get my morals in check.  Personally, I have no problem with people sharing my music around.  I’m flattered by the idea.  I also don’t need to support myself on it.  But I never want to.  So does that make me believe file-sharing is ok?

I need to take into consideration other people in the world besides myself.  Two personal heroes of mine, Mark McCoy and Justin Pearson, own their own labels and put out music by bands I really enjoy.  But it seems I believe that everyone should be like me and be open with sharing their music.  Unfortunately the amount of money I need to put out records and tapes and cd-rs with my friends is only a fraction of the cost of the new Geronimo or Cult Ritual albums.  Even on that DIY level, everything is expensive.

Another person I admire, Eric Paul, just started his own label, Anchor Brain, that I am very excited about.  His first release is the third LP by his band The Chinese Stars.  I’ve heard it and it’s great.  But what if I just feel like not spending a few bucks on shipping or the extra $2 it might cost his label to to put out an album because he cant by in bulk because he cant sell that many records?  On a small scale, I am costing him and whoever else he may run the label with about $13 they deserve.  But of course I’m not the only person who might do the same as him.  So on a big scale he is fucked, and Pearson is fucked, and McCoy is fucked.  And I save $50 on a couple mp3s.

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3

This hasn’t been used in over a year.  I was Googling “Radically Fucked” to see if anyone else uses it and completely forgot I made this.  I think I’ll start using it a lot more now though.  I like the idea of just writing down/typing up what is on my mind even if no one reads it.  It just feels really good.  And short sentences of wit posted on Facebook don’t get my whole point across.

Also, I really hope writing/typing more will help me with my grammar and spelling that have really been going downhill lately.